Monday, September 1, 2014

a letter to my Crush

In an attempt (a tad rebellious maybe) to be honest to the only thing that screams "THE REAL ME" - my blog, I continue to write truthful letters. This is the second one



Dear Complicated,

I know of no other name by which to call you, as you had always complicated my thoughts. I write this letter so that I may finally, honestly, claim that I told you how I feel - even if I am relieved by the fact that you may never read this letter, or the fact that you may read it, but never know that its you I am talking about. See? I told you it was complicated.

The first time I saw you, I wanted to see you closer - maybe look into those eyes that were so intriguing. Of course, the stuttering fool in me ensured I could not speak even a few decent lines in your presence. Yes, you were intimidating - and I don't say this only as someone who had my heart on my sleeve - you seemed to have that effect on many people!

We spoke - many times, as our paths crossed often. I guess I noticed every movement, every glance, every syllable from your mouth. I had played it over and over in my head  - in slow motion, wondering each time whether you meant something when you said random words, or passed amused glances my way.

You were tall - tall enough that I could spot you in an crowd. I could recognize the sound of your voice, your laughter - and your bike from a distance. I knew all your best friends, and even became friends with them. But you? You I could not befriend - maybe because I was such a klutz around you, or maybe because you already knew how I felt and didn't feel the same way.

I have moved on - life has that to its credit - I found my love, my happiness and where I belong. But you, my dear Complicated, will always make me dreamy-eyed and weak-kneed.

Love,

The one who chickened out.

14 comments:

  1. :) ohhh well it was not to be ... thats all i can say ..


    Bikram's

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    1. so good to see you again, Bikram!! Yes, in a way, good it was not!!

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  2. Good to see the blogger back in action :)
    Keep them coming Meena!!

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  3. Rebellious indeed!! I hate the person I had a crush on for the first time. More followed and I don't like any of them either. Although there is always that one person who can make us weak-kneed, but well, wasn't meant to be :)

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    1. oh yes! I know what you mean... the one who you have a crush on is probably not the one you could be in love with!!

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  4. Aww!!! It could have been, but maybe it's best that you found someone whom you could be comfortable with!

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    1. hi Roshni... long time. How are the boys?

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  5. ehehhe we all have a crush we chickened out on no?
    I still have one around. I get week kneed but I would never want to pursue him. I am happy right now. :D

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  6. Hahah....crushes are complicated most of the times...because they don't know what is going on here and we can't let them know :)

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    1. hahaha..... true. Spoken from experience, I presume? :-)

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  7. Very interesting blog post, good job and thanks for sharing such a good blog.
    La Femme Beauty

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    1. hi... thank you Ramachandran! Have not been writing, and your comment just made me decide I want to start again!

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